Mom Crush Monday

Every single Wednesday my son posts how crazy he is about his current girlfriend.  It's called Woman Crush Wednesday...and he never misses.

Kevin's birthday my son went crazy and posted tons of pics of him and his best friend/brother.

So Mother's Day came and I waited...and waited...and well I am still waiting and that was yesterday.  I am still hurt. Still upset. Yes, it's just stupid social media and it really doesn't "mean" anything...but it does.

See it's his world.  I am not much of a part of it.

Everything I have asked of him...every! thing! Has been pushed aside.

Come and I will help with your resume...thought he was coming, he never showed
Return the chair you borrowed to the garage...it's still in his car
Please clean up the cups from your room now..."do I have to do it now, now really? I will do it before I leave"...they are still there

I got a Happy Mother's Day text.
A hug.
However, I utterly felt like he came to dinner out of obligation not because he wanted to spend time with me.
We didn't get a picture together.
He left early.

Now, I know this boy loves me...but I am left longing. I know he can't see the way he hurts me and how much he dismisses every thing asked of him. It's like he is living in a selfish bubble and only see what he wants.  

I wondered if I should tell him I was sad. I decided not because then it would be an obligatory post out of annoyance with the demands of the bother of a mother.

This is not a fun season.  I am sad.

I don't even know what else to do but wait for a new season. 

Then thoughts go to my mother...I wonder how much hurt I caused her that she never even spoke to me because she was just waiting on a new season.  Probably a lot.